Well I thought of her today when I started crying. Because my pregnancy wasn't too jolly today. I actually cried twice today. Which might seem like a lot to some but reasonable to those who understand the amount of attention a baby in the womb requires. If I'm not hungry I have heartburn. If I'm sweating it's not because the sun is too hot but rather because the baby is exhausting my body. Walking is becoming a chore. Sure the 104° weather here in southern California isn't helping one bit. However what really frustrated me today was the fact that my air conditioner in my car stopped working. I'm certain I was beyond frustrated because I even yelled at my GPS when it told me to continue straight on Foothill Blvd. Extremely frustrated that I even hung up on my honey while I spoke to him. At which point I started crying. I'm aware not everything in my life will be perfect but let me tell you God really knows when to show Himself to us... He's always there at perfect timing.
I visited a friend today who has a toddler nicknamed JJ. He's very handsome and mellow. He's so handsome he has thee perfect tan. After she tours me around her apartment we go back into the nursery. She shares with me all the baby necessitys and stuff she's used the past ten months with him, one of the items being a bassinet. Of course I fell in love. She said I can use it with my baby. I was a bit shocked so I offered to pay for it. She said no. Just use it and take care of it just in case baby number two makes an early appearance. Anyways, the bassinet is perfect for me. It's totally my taste in furniture, style and size. It looks vintage and the lace which was used to embroider the bottom resembled a cute Victorian style. To make matters even sweeter the colors were unisex.
Well when I was driving around Rancho I completely forgot about this fabulous gift. The heat had consumed the best of me. Until of course the tears came rolling down my colorless checks. On the corner of Foothill Blvd and Day Creek there was a bus stop...of course the only person waiting for the bus is an expecting mother. You'd be surprise how much you start noticing expecting mothers once you become one. Anyways, here I was bitching about the damn airconditioned-less vehicle of mine (which by the way I totalled in January and still works absolutely perfect) but there she was waiting for the bus. I'm not certain what was worse the amount of ungratefulness that consumed me up when the AC stopped working or the fact that my heart shattered into countless pieces when I saw her and realized that the deep tan her skin had probably came from waiting around for buses in the city. To make matters worse was that bus stop didn't have a shade port. :(
You see friends pregnacy isn't perfect and neither is this game of life. It's far from perfect actually. There's stretch marks and frustration. Hunger and discomfort. But everyone's situation varies. Even if there's only one positive thing left in your life you need to hold on to it. Everyone has something to be grateful for, everyone...even the homeless. It can be breathing, family, significant others, friends, God, food, water and so on! Anyways if none of the words on this blog made sense just know the following is what's really important:
Today I am thankful for the lady at the bus stop and my lovely friends whom shower me with gifts but most importantly comfort...there's also something you should be thankful foe today.. you just need to put on that thinking cap. <3
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